all i want to say is
when you feel in despair even if its subtle, please reach out to someone who is willingly to listen,
and for people, try to keep listening to ppl's stories, they just need your ears and that you acknowledge their pain without trying to give solutions
and.... to spread awareness? i guess.... but hopefully, i am hoping that whereever you are, whatever you are doing, even if ppl look down at you about your fangirling habit, thats one of the method to ease your stress. dont get too stressful, and its okay to be not okay
so i really apologize for not updating anymore bcs honestly i have lost touch with reality as well. i don't come here just for ranting or showing that i am having a hard time as if other ppl's life are easier than me. but... idk? maybe it is the way to release what i am thinking