literally can reach all of my goals even if fasting until the end of november doesn't work out, I just have to average like 800cals a day. and I'll finally be at a weight where I don't feel like a useless piece of shit and then might join the gym again
keep having horrible nightmares of something bad happening to my partner and the deep dark void that consumes my entire being for the period where I have to live in that reality is unbearable but somehow my partner manages to wake me up and be there to hold me. I cry every time