words «loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty» are always ringing in my head. It's too loud. suicide. suicide is a decision.
"summer will come, or when I buy smthing, or when I meet a soulmate, it will get better." no. I keep dying, cutting my flesh, and continuously drinking into a state of shit. I'm self-destruction, I don't even have the strength to get up, no matter how hard u try to help.
It shouldn't be good. he cried louder and louder, especially when they touched, and even in an attempt to calm, they hugged, which made his throat feel like it was wrapped with iron wire.
"I'm afraid to snap and kill u," but I'm loyal to him in the matter of my own death, please, I'm all for it. there is truth only in death, and the listeners of Swedish bm band Shining know this. who better than me has all the translations of their songs?;)
we have more than love, we have beatings, violence in its purest form, blood vows and constant snuff viewing. loving me means joining the death, and he became my guide into the world of true hell;) one wants to separate us, for u, u can't stand it, u're too weak for that hahaha.
I made a friend for the first time in several years. udk me, so u might think I have a lot of friends, but I don't. my friend and I are watching a snuff in the mall on a large ipad screen, scaring ppl with our dead appearance. I like it.
#violence#dead#snuff
we talked about which of us is more sinful and deserves to listen to black metal in all sincerity.
I said, «I almost broke ur skull, am I still not cruel enough?»
he said, «u didn't break my head, so u're still low.»
It's such a thrill to be nothing in his eyes. my unattainable.
I love Mayhem and Burzum, they are the fathers of black metal. don't listen to those who say that doesn't make u a metalhead. true is when musicians and fans live by the «commandments» of the lyrics and messages music. main thing is to give urself wholeheartedly and be faithful.
they came for me. they're here. so close, as close as I ever thought they would be. I'm not going crazy slowly anymore, but with a hellish speed, I remain loyal to the shining band to the death, I love Niklas and his art of truth. I'm scared. very. they're here. #dsbm#bm#metal