I played my last softball game 7 years ago.
Can anybody tell me when I quit waking up in a cold sweat looking for a uniform that doesn’t (and never did??) exist?
You are so much more than the lies that have been spoken of you.
Lies will linger
but Love
will never stop believing
in your goodness.
No lie
can erase
how loved
you are.
From my most recovered place -
Cottage cheese is not ice cream.
Eat the freaking real ice cream.
Life is too short + you can enjoy your food.
That is all.
Religious trauma is the effect of the burden of stress on your body and nervous system when in religious systems and relationships that steal your safety and call it spiritual.
It’s not perfect and there are still triggers and bad dreams and thick, heavy days -
but somebody find baby Sarah Caroline and let her know we made it.
And it is worth sticking it out for.
I’m sitting on my bed in a place that is my own - watching my dog play with her ball.
She looks up at me periodically - making sure I haven’t focused on anything other than all of her glory.
And it dawns on me - this is the moment I prayed for.
Nursing school doesn’t teach you -
a) how to go to a patient’s funeral that should still be learning to crawl, play, and talk.
b) how to TRULY advocate for yourself and your patients
c) that you really aren’t in control of who lives and who dies
if your friends just don’t randomly send where they park or vitals in your group message so they don’t forget, are you really friends? @sacaroline29@BaileyBritt6@katierodgers99
Mrs. Rachel released a new episode today.
It’s like Christmas morning over here.
Rejoice with me + all of the other peds chronic care home health nurses. We were quoting the old ones in our sleep.
My fight response doesn’t want to yell, scream, and throw things.
It wants to build a PowerPoint with years worth of evidence (ie: screenshots, voice recordings, documentation) to prove myself.
Sometimes I wish the fighter just wanted to punch a hole in the wall and move on.