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just an alt account to tweet out my feelings and thoughts

[. @sadboytwts]

And now because of this im back in the same place I was 4 years ago

[. @sadboytwts]

Wasted 3 years of my mf life so someone who gave it away at a fucking club

[. @sadboytwts]

CAUSE OF COURSE THERE WAS ANOTHER GUY

[. @sadboytwts]

I FUCKING KNEW IT

I KNEW SOMETHING WAS GOING ON
I FUCKING KNEW SHE WAS PULLING SOME SHIT BEHIND MY BACK

I FUCKING KNEW IT

[. @sadboytwts]

Gotta begin to forget and forgive myself so I can move on from you

[. @sadboytwts]

Itll never be normal again

[. @sadboytwts]

It should've been me.

[. @sadboytwts]

Theres so much I wanna say to you.

You broke my heart, everytime I think of you, see you or interact with you. I remember you're the same girl who was at that party.

It tears me apart thinking about all of that, constantly remembering what you did and what you allowed.

[. @sadboytwts]

One day youll know all the hurt you made me feel by seeing this. The heartbreak and i hope you genuinely realize all you did was so so wrong and it was never me who was the bad guy who asked you to not hangout with the guy from that day, or to not defend him.

[. @sadboytwts]

She proves to me that I am nothing but a 2nd option to her time after time and it hurts

[. @sadboytwts]

I really wish that I understood the reasoning, why this happens

[. @sadboytwts]

Why am I allowing myself to be treated this way?

[. @sadboytwts]

Why do I subject myself to this further

[. @sadboytwts]

I miss the person I used to be before all of this, I feel like I'm a former shell of what I used to be, not who I wanted to be

[. @sadboytwts]

2 years later and I feel like I'm In the same place I was

[. @sadboytwts]

As I get older, I keep realizing what's happening to me and seeing how mentally ill I actually am and how it affects everything

[. @sadboytwts]

I think the saddest thing is that every once and a while, I end up coming back because I've got no one and nothing, the only bit of anything I get is from letting it out via tweets