Yara

24 | infj

[Yara @sadteddyb]

Chocolate cake 💗

[Yara @sadteddyb]

There’s literally no jobs on LinkedIn what am I supposed to do I applied to everything already

[Yara @sadteddyb]

I genuinely forgot how a bitch she can be It’s like reliving my childhood again she put the seed in me to please ppl bc I couldn’t control his presence or unpredictable actions he was like leashed wolf that was hanging by a thread but I was able to preform and control hers

[Yara @sadteddyb]

Bed rotting is all I do it’s what my body allow me to do

[Yara @sadteddyb]

But i genuinely have no power to save me I’m too powerless and weak

[Yara @sadteddyb]

I can’t even cry loud bc I got no fucking room on my own do u know how depressing is that

[Yara @sadteddyb]

I think 2031 will be my year if I didn’t already die

[Yara @sadteddyb]

Thank god love island use is back bc I needed a reason to wake up everyday

[Yara @sadteddyb]

I have been so overwhelmed by this silly manual therapy “practice interview” so I prepared nothing my hands will not be therapying well that day if I continue to stress about it without doing anything

[Yara @sadteddyb]

So I’m currently hated by everyone in this household except my father which is ironic I feel like a criminal

[Yara @sadteddyb]

It always felt as if my soul was touched by death but my body refused to leave

[Yara @sadteddyb]

Eid is just a reminder that I have no one

[Yara @sadteddyb]

I feel so bad for myself because i lived a little , i felt alive for few times in my life and i only experienced being a regular human being like everyone else one time in my life and it was for a pathetic reason and I crave this feeling so much

[Yara @sadteddyb]

It all circle back to my loneliness and emptiness

[Yara @sadteddyb]

I have so much sadness that I don’t know what to do with

[Yara @sadteddyb]

Who wants to hire me 🥲

[Yara @sadteddyb]

My upper traps and lats are sooo freaking sore

[Yara @sadteddyb]

I don’t want to live in a hole anymore I don’t want to be poor anymore I want to
Be hired asap

[Yara @sadteddyb]

My first time meeting an Italian

[Yara @sadteddyb]

Overshared

[Yara @sadteddyb]

I hate being in the same room as him or eating on same table his presence intimidate me and trigger the spring of endless fear he installed in me since I was a little girl and I hate him for that and I hate myself for not overcoming this hideous anxiety and fragility

[Yara @sadteddyb]

It’s very sad to have a father that was never present in your life I live with his phantom in the same household and I grieve him while he is in the room next to me