Saix

unfiltered self-talk of me.

please just ignore it.

[Saix @salDx22]

I talk too much here, time to uninstall again

[Saix @salDx22]

I wish I could see no more, so cement all excuses to my eyes.
I wish I could hear no more, so read me a book of me.

No home for someone as weak as me.
No sky to aim for someone as low as me.

I spoke no more as every word I have saved for you came out wrong afterwards.

[Saix @salDx22]

They bit, slashed me open, cut off my legs, my arms, my head....

If I was born in a different body, will our lives be easy?
If we get a next life, I hope we're not human at all.

[Saix @salDx22]

All the mushrooms looked at me.. All the mushrooms surround me..

[Saix @salDx22]

existing and trying to be alive

[Saix @salDx22]

Death with Dignity,

dying only in a way You Allowed me to.

I hope I find it soon.

[Saix @salDx22]

I'll keep searching for ways to meet YOU, my dear God.

Like a stone that is thrown in the rushing water of a stream and who leaves behind its thousands of ripples in the water.

YOU showered me with many blessings, but I realised I can't see all of it with my current eyes.

[Saix @salDx22]

I hope I'll be seeing you soon.

[Saix @salDx22]

"Selamat karena telah selamat."
- Thes

her words hit me deep.

[Saix @salDx22]

May peace and blessings be upon you.

[Saix @salDx22]

Even if the sea devour our bodies, je t'aimerai encore.

Even if the salt washes our hearts, je t'aimerai encore.

That's how it is, my heart is a turtle's heart. So make you stab, pierce and kill me thoroughly.
Je veux mourir dans tes bras

Je m'excuse auprès des dieux.

[Saix @salDx22]

If we're going to die, please let me be the first.

I want to see what face you'll make when you see me dying.

[Saix @salDx22]

Je me souviens qu'on avait dit que tout serait bientôt fini.
Il n'est jamais trop tard pour tomber de haut.
The winds blowing on my cheeks...
I hope to restart from scratch.

For the sinner, the curtain call has come.

T'inquiète pas Maman, j'vais bien .