Samantha

Sam. I’m 27 and 2 years sober and counting! I started this journey on here my day 1 which was 12/31/2018....let’s see where it takes me!

[Samantha @samiam1294]

1 MONTH sober 😄 I am very happy with that today. Don’t get me wrong I am still depressed and anxiety ridden it’s def not a cure, but I know that I am feeling insurmountably better than if I where to have continued drinking into the new year. Let the journey continue..

[Samantha @samiam1294]

@tcgolfer1313 I don’t feel bad for myself, just was a hard day of negative self thoughts . I will make a list today. Thank you!

[Samantha @samiam1294]

I feel like everyone has always just spoke disappointment of me. Messing up, not doing the things I’m supposed to do. Getting in trouble. I feel like my father doesn’t even seem to care if I see him again ever. My grandfather told me I never see anything through; the list could

[Samantha @samiam1294]

How am I supposed to reengage back into society when my credibility is gone?

[Samantha @samiam1294]

(Cont) go on. Im just so tired of everything and feeling like shit about all the bad things I’ve done or said. I burned all the bridges I had built the last year, due to my own self-imposed isolation. I’m just a failure it seems.

[Samantha @samiam1294]

Maybe they got the alleged Idaho murderes DNA through like a piece of tissue or something after they figured it was him 🤔

[Samantha @samiam1294]

If I shower and don’t feel starving at the end of the night when I’m going to sleep, it’s been a good day. That’s how I’m gaging my days at this point. Lol. It’s not funny, but if I make light of it, it makes my life feel like a dramatic comedy.

[Samantha @samiam1294]

I’m in survival mode rn. Everyday feels so hard. I’m sure it’ll get better though. Just going to take care of myself and prioritize comfort ❤️‍🩹

[Samantha @samiam1294]

@charliersmith1 Did you know you where declining in your mental health or did it come out of no where?

[Samantha @samiam1294]

I was also recently diagnosed with fibromyalgia; how do people get over these low periods whilst still keeping their jobs? It’s rendered me at times immobile due to pain and fatigue that I’ve been experiencing.

[Samantha @samiam1294]

I know I’m a great coach but no one understands how hard it is for me to turn “ON”. J just want to paint inside my home and do virtual training. I must work for that

[Samantha @samiam1294]

Good morning guys! It’s 7:45am and my anxiety is rearing it’s ugly head. I’m a personal trainer and thinking of quitting because the small talk and schedule feels like it’s killing me

[Samantha @samiam1294]

That’s all for tonight. Fun fact I got both of my DUIs on thanksgiving. 2014 & 2015. That’s all for tonight, I just wanted to get that off my chest. Thank you.

[Samantha @samiam1294]

Every issue I’ve had/big traumatic event, has been rooted in my lack of self-esteem. Not understanding what I deserve. Not seeing my value. Those 2 and half years of complete no alcohol, gave me clarity and an understanding of myself that I wouldn’t have gained if I never quit.

[Samantha @samiam1294]

Life is short and I now realize what my main issue was which was my self esteem. Thinking I wasn’t enough without being under the influence. I thought I was cooler and more fun if drunk. But my sober self is the coolest 😎 that’s what I’ve realized in this journey. It’s a choice.

[Samantha @samiam1294]

Hey guys been awhile. Ugh I started drinking again in “moderation” or whatever and I can 10/10 tell you it’s not worth it. I mean I haven’t lost anything big and my life isn’t falling apart, but it’s just not the same. It’s like my body rejects it lol

[Samantha @samiam1294]

Hey what’s up twittersphere. Is this thing still on 🎤🤔🤔🤔

[Samantha @samiam1294]

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[Samantha @samiam1294]

919 days sober y’all. Thank god the next holiday isn’t until thanksgiving. Summer is so hard for me but I’m hanging in there!!!! I have accomplished so much the last 2 years that I NEVER would have gotten done if I was still drinking…

[Samantha @samiam1294]

@nappyroots919 Keep your head up! We got this✊🏽❤️

[Samantha @samiam1294]

When they don’t understand sobriety for me and fitness is a job. I have to focus on it all hours of the day really. And I would like a job helping other people that have been in my same spiral..I know I’m not alone but just feeling confused on what to do today.