ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵

adult ╱ they/he/it ╱ #venttwt #bpdtwt #systwt #shtwt #drugtwt recovering but not healed. ╱ my public diary 𑣲 .𖥔 ݁ ˖ ╱ ifb 18+!

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

#promopost #intropost

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ 𐌔amii — @samiizdespair
.𖥔 ݁ ˖ adult ; ~they/them he/it~ ; ifb 18+
.𖥔 ݁ ˖ queer enby loser
.𖥔 ݁ ˖ disabled & mentally ill
.𖥔 ݁ ˖ #venttwt #drugtwt #shedtwt #shtwt #bpdtwt #obsesstwt #systwt #edtwt
𑣲 + ⟳ to be moots, 18+! #promotwtㅤ

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

i miss the sting i miss the adrenaline i miss the blood and destruction i miss it all

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

i don’t want to stay clean anymore, i dont want to hit a year clean cause when i inevitably relapse i’ll feel even worse

[🦋 @leftunsents]

my biggest achievement this year so far:
1. didn't kill myself
2. didn't kill anyone

[amanda young of edtwt @wideopenh3art]

"stop cutting yourself it leaves scars"

its either this or i kill myself

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

@babywr3ck exactly bro. they’ll be fine

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

don’t even wanna cope in a healthy way i want to destroy my life

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

what’s the fucking point in trying to stay clean. what’s the repercussions, people are mad at me? oh well they’ll get over it.

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

i can be a bad person, i try not to because i know i hurt people when i act that way but dude you’re fucking with me too much i’m going to blow the fuck up on you and hurt your fucking feelings. keep playing.

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

supposed to be recovering but if these mfs keep playing with me im going to show them why im recovering in the first place.

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

you think i’m such a bad person, fuck with me a little more and i’ll show you how truly awful i can be.

[𓏵 @7nxyan]

the longer youre clean the bigger the relapse

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

realized halfway thru i sound fucking pathetic and deleted it before i embarrassed myself lol.

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

moment i realized i was fucking pathetic.

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

@junie_angelic it means no dni!

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

lol everything is falling through and i’m so fucking stressed

[ᛝ 𐌔amii 𓏵𓏵 @samiizdespair]

reallllllyyyyyyyyyy want to relapse