Ellie

Meal & Weight-loss Diary •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• SW: 170 CW: 142 (-28lbs) CGW: 138 (-5 left)

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

139.8 !!
My third time reaching the 130’s… will I gain it back again? Hmmmm

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

Day 2/42
•1010 cals
•13k steps

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

141 today! I’m logging it as 141.5 :>

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

Day 1/42
•1078 cals
•10k steps

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

[Day 1 stats]
Weight: 143 lbs
BMI 23.4
waist 27”
hip 35”
butt 39”
upper thigh 23”
calve 15”
neck 12.5”
bust 35”
under bust 30”
upper arm 13”
upper forearm 9”
bra size 30DD

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

I have lost maybe 5 lbs in 3 months :D I’ve looked the same for way too long. I can’t even begin to imagine my body at a lower weight, it partly doesn’t even feel possible.

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

I love beautiful white flowers !

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I’m so so so in love with my bf. Some part of me wants to lose weight for him, even though he told me I don’t need to lose any weight. Does that even make sense?

[Ray Mond @AmberRayz]

Just paid my rent, now I have a warm place to starve in

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

Day 2/42
145.5 lbs
♡ 1219 cals
♡ 75g protein
♡ 35g fiber
♡ 5k steps

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

Day 1/42
145.8 lbs
♡ 913 cals
♡ 55g protein
♡ 21g fiber
♡ 1.5k steps

Day 1 of trying to take better care of my mental and physical health erm.

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

-but guess what? Being even fatter doesn’t make that feeing go away, in fact it makes death even more appealing. So enough of that.

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

lol I reached the 130’s and immediately went from locked in to depressed and binging all day like crazy. I still felt fat and decided I’d be fat at any weight and wanted to die. Eating didn’t even help at all. I just felt so uncomfortable and tried to placate myself with food.

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

Despite reaching a milestone I felt super fat today. I decided to dye my hair darker and paint my nails my favorite color. I think it cheered me up a little bit. I’m just sad that even after I lose 20 more lbs I’ll still be fat. Still be fatter than my bf too.

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

[June 26th 2026]
147 lbs
BMI: 24.1
Waist: 29” (+ 2)
Bust: 37” (+2)
Under bust: 31” (+1)
Upper thigh: 24” (+1)
Bra size: 32DDD
Standard size: M-L

Some of this is bloating and water retention etc but Jesus fucking Christ. This is the reality though so I’ll still log it…

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

[June 14th 2026]
Body check week 1/8
139 lbs
BMI: 22.8
Waist: 27”
Bust: 25”
Under bust: 30”
Upper thigh: 23”
Bra size: 30DDD
Standard size: M

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

I think my depressive episode is over. Maybe. I gained 5 lbs uhhh fck

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

@dotonthegrid @fortnitewh0re3 Binge eating disorder is often about “bad” or forbidden foods, so sugary food is a common food consumed. It’s different than sugar addiction though. I’ve binged on meats before like chicken and salted ground beef even…

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

Me whenever I remember that I never have to give birth or anything & it’s not an inevitability all women are doomed to

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@Ada_Wng_7 @monochromerims @Dexerto Probably because it’s a product and he wants to maximize the number of satisfied customers.

[Ellie @sanctionedoff]

I need structure in my diet again uhhh I’ve been spinning out since that bad health day