so touch starved i fantasize about simply being held and caressed like i am precious . yet the idea of someone touching me is terrifying bc i feel so grotesque. so im going to stand in the middle of train tracks tomorrow
I have failed
- Socially
- Romantically
- Academically
- Financially
- Spiritually
- Physically
But for some reason I still havenβt killed myself. Letβs make 2026 a good one you guys.
feeling very bad donβt know what exactly is wrong could be the multiple disorders or the childhood trauma or the bad weather or the nutritional deficiencies or the lack of sleep or my hormones or the curses or my father or the loud noises or