@kitkatcords I said I wanted to be on this side & he told me I can do whatever I want & that I'm awesome! My heart was beating so fast! #MegaCon17
I mean the universe won’t even let us run into each other in person (probably for my own good, I don’t need to have my first panic attack) Yes I see his car, but does he see mine? No. Does he creep on my pages? No. Seems like I’m on the losing side and I can’t do it anymore.
I know my manifestation girlies will hate this tweet but I know we won’t ever be together. Even if he DID want me, remembered me and contacted me, his penis has been in numerous women while WITH me and after. I can’t handle that fact. I must continue to try to move on.
I’m moving into an office at work so there is less chance of people walking in. I go to the same places on the weekends. I wish to meet someone organically but I don’t know. I need to accept not meeting anyone at all. But then I question…why not me?
Writing in my journal again and tearing up because everything I want at this big age is still a fantasy. It happens for other people and not me. I’m torn between accepting the reality and sadness or still having hope for a reality that probably won’t happen.
There has to be a reason I have this desire, right? Is it possible for me to find a hottie with nice hair, pretty smile, cool piercings and tattoos, good job, smart, kind, loyal and obsessed with me? Who will buy me coffee, take me to concerts, fill my gas, love me out loud?
Just did the math and I probably won’t be okay again until maybe June. There’s always something that has the potential to hurt me with all the past anniversary dates in the months beforehand. Maybe one day I’ll forget them and will be able to just live for myself.
stop being afraid of losing people and remember you are also a great loss too. someone will spend the rest of their lives trying to search for someone with qualities like yours.
No sleeping in the same bed ever again? No watching movies and cuddling ever again? No talking to you ever again? I’m never going to see or know you again even though I see reminders of you living without me?
Yearly dermatologist appointment today. Itching (slight eczema) and easy bruising (slight anemia) have gotten better. Going to continue my acne treatment and also use a new body wash to help with ingrown hairs after shaving.
My date of birth feels like a celebrity to me. Whenever I see it written somewhere random, like on a movie poster or a milk carton, I'm like omg there she is! Ugh, she looks great :)
🎃 “HALLOWEENTOWN 5” is officially in development at Disney!
The news comes just days after Billie Lourd expressed her desire to join the franchise and honor her late grandmother, Debbie Reynolds, who famously portrayed Aggie Cromwell.
“I’m so available. I would absolutely love to do that.”
— via TheWrap & PEOPLE