found my first lps mommy baby set!! got some other isos too. my ocd is super bad today and i feel bitter sweet about buying it (i am constantly obsessing about spending) so hoping posting it will make me feel better
i feel like sh relapsing so bad rn im going to try and play rhythm heaven or something i can’t handle this. i’ve been doing so good. i stg i have pmdd because ive worked so hard and it is this never ending cycle. another reason i need to go home is so i can see my therapist
i’m having such a rough night i feel so alone. i want to go back home :(. i wish i could handle my emotions by myself but it’s so so much. all the time.
i wish i could stop obsessing about constantly trying to be better and constantly trying to do the “right” thing. why does every “condition” have to be right in order for me to go enjoy myself, like hiking or going to the beach. it’s never enough. i hate ocd i hate it
i’m to fat to go to the beach, then i’m too broke, then i’m too anxious, then is because i didn’t have enough time to “plan” it. if it’s not right something bad is going to happen or i’m going to be miserable. but it never will be right bc my brain will think of another rule