I honestly can't remember the last time I was truly happy. It's been so long since I felt genuine peace or smiled without carrying the weight of something on my mind. I just hope that one day things will get better.
I just want to experience a season of life where I'm not always recovering from something. It feels like there's always an ugly truth I'm having to confront, a belief I'm having to unlearn, more work to be done. It's exhausting and lonely. And yeah, I get that life isn't fair and that you have to just keep going. But i keep being resilient when what I'd really like is relief.