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🐰 it actually really hurt my feelings back then. whenever i tried to approach yeonjun hyung and start a conversation, he would just try to hide everything and it felt like he was putting up a wall. but that day, while we were drinking together, for the first time in years, he opened up and shared his honest feelings with me. so i ended up crying that day… while we were talking
👤 why? what made you cry?
🐰 just while i was listening, it suddenly started coming out… i hadn’t cried like that in a while. he’s kind of like a ‘sore finger’ for me, you know… and he was going through a really tough time back then, but it felt like he was in the process of becoming a better person, someone stronger. i think that’s what made me feel really happy about it. i was really relieved
👤 so was that the first time you two actually just drank together alone?
🐰 not the first time, we’ve done it a few times
🦊 but it had been a really long time
🐰 yeah, usually, whenever we fight and make up, we end up drinking together, it’s happened more than once. but i’m the type who needs to resolve things immediately, and yeonjun hyung is the type who needs time. that difference made things hard too. whenever something happened, i would always try to fix it right away, but he would kind of avoid it. so at some point i said, ‘let’s try giving him the time he needs.’
🐰 but it took too long. i gave him like 6 months, and he still wasn’t ready to talk. and i kept saying, ‘when something happens, i wish you’d also learn to come to me first sometimes, because i’m always the one approaching you, so of course i end up feeling hurt.’
🐰 and then after 10 years of knowing yeonjun hyung, he finally asked to talk first. i was like, ‘wow, after 10 years, it finally came.’ the moment i got his message, i was really worried
🐰 i was like, ‘did i do something wrong? did something happen to me?’ for like two days i was really anxious. before sleeping i kept going over everything in my past like, ‘did i ever talk badly about yeonjun hyung somewhere?’ i was just really worried
🐰 but in the end, it was just him finally opening up first in a really honest way, so i was really happy. like, ‘oh… okay?’
so all their fights were just because they cared too much about each other… soobin wanted yeonjun to lean on him more but yeonjun didn’t wanna be a burden and that’s why they stayed away from each other…
it's really interesting that soobin knew there were parts of their dynamic that people didn’t fully understand and wanting to talk about it openly... like that says a lot about how much he values what he and yeonjun actually have
👤 there are actually a lot of people who really like the chemistry between you two
🐰 yeonjun hyung and i havent really gone on variety shows as a unit that often
🐰 it was actually me who brought it up first, i was like “hyung, honestly, if we go on salon drip, i want to clear things up and talk about our relationship and talk about it comfortably”
🐰 but yeonjun hyung and i also had a bit of an awkward period between us
🐰 (nodding)
👤 oh really?
🐰 if someone said “please put your hand on yeonjun-ssi’s shoulder” i thought i was going to go crazy
👤 why was it awkward?
🦊 this might be a bit long.. is that okay?
🦊 it’s really long
🐰 when are you gonna start from?