LOVEFOOL

17 || ♀ || several months sh free || several months in ed recovery

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most of what you need to know about me is in my bio.

i linger here and there, mainly to educate or vent, ex shedtwt member.

#recoverytwt #venttwt

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i strictly only like dudes who couldnt give less of a shit about me. what the fuck kind of rigged logic is that ?? its not even hot because i feel miserable every time.

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i dont want to be in pain. its not even curable. i need to be put down like a dog. its ethical, isnt it ? being human isnt an excuse. i want it to be over

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im doing so much better but there will always be that lingering hope that everything just ends

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i fucki ny hate myself and the way i seek for male validation like a maniac

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so calmly dissatisfied, and yet i feel closer to relapse than any other emotional state

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@mangoed0212 sweetest thing ever, love for you and your mom <3

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@SLlM3PUPPY so while i do agree, i also believe that there might be some kind of ethical issue in the case that the poster is doing it on purpose. however, i cant say for sure, hence why i am trying to communicate with others who have another perspective :)

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@SLlM3PUPPY i fully agree with the idea that the only one responsible for triggers is the person who has them ! i had just seen somewhere else that the poster had a weird trend of perhaps purposely trying to stimulate the triggered audience so im just trying to find out more…—

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@Brae1237 @7luvisa @Crow50532217703 @Nianbqi a lot of people ive talked to so far in this thread seem oddly aggressive about this topic… not sure why. i havent been hostile at all, and i appreciate everyones feedback. either way, no one has told me yet what the substance in question is, which is mainly what i find weird

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@zombaeluvr @7luvisa @Crow50532217703 @Nianbqi —still stand that most of the visual aspects of that sourdough were unusual and potentially unnecessary. i dont think people are ridiculous for thinking the same… but since so many others seem to think so, then i have nothing left to say 🙃

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@zombaeluvr @7luvisa @Crow50532217703 @Nianbqi i dont even use this app that much 😕 not everything has to match to a tee to resemble a mutilating behavior. in fact, it probably wouldnt even be up on whatever platform it came from if it did. i respect that maybe to some it doesnt resemble an injury, but i think my points—

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@KAY2JADED @7luvisa @Crow50532217703 @Nianbqi i have already said that i have recovered and i do not self harm anymore, nor engage in any other self destructive behaviors. thank you either way, whether you mean it or not

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@7luvisa @Crow50532217703 @Nianbqi —patting it down with a cloth? this isnt about triggers anymore, i dont get inherently triggered by it because ive recovered. but still, this person is undoubtedly trying to resemble something here, and that is weird

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@7luvisa @Crow50532217703 @Nianbqi of course its not, but every single mannerism in this video is implied to look like sh. you dont even have to ever be around sh to realize it. i have never seen a wet substance leaking out of sourdoughs, it isnt apart of the baking process. even if it was, why would she be—

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flashback to a few years ago when i accidentally brought blades in my personal luggage (that i used to ouch myself) through TSA and nothing happened

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i feel so euphoric for all the wrong reasons and its making me so so so sick

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also thinking about a singular individual from the ward, just one. i still have the yu gi oh volume. you were incredible in the few days that i knew you, hope youre doing awesome

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i think about the wound care ladies at the hospital a lot. one of the very first validating spaces i went to for self harm. im self harm free now, hopefully forever. im trying to feel comfortable with my scars now, and its making me think about those lovely ladies

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@ChechaChec7779 guhh this makes me feel such a weird type of way

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does he ?