Cindy 👽

Author, Poet, Schizophrenia Advocate. Instagram - ThrivingWithCindy 👽

[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

Modern poetry sucks, yet terrible poems somehow go viral online. I challenged myself to make even worse poems, and unfortunately, I think I succeeded.
This is a great book if you love bad poetry and want to have a laugh. https://t.co/J26O7DywR8

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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

A poem from ‘Graveflowers,’ my poetry collection. Perfect if you want to read some deep and relatable poems! https://t.co/J26O7DywR8
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

My body screams in blood
Every month like clockwork,
And yet they say I am dramatic.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

He argued that I was far too fragile,
But I have endured
Every kind of breaking,
And still, my heart grows back stronger
And more resilient, each time.

Fragile things do not survive
What I have survived.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

You asked for all of me
Pure, human, authentic
And I gave you my veins

You drank me empty
Then complained
That my tarnished blood
Tasted too much like survival.

(‘Vampire’- a poem by C.C)
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

Childhood felt like drowning
In a bathtub full of gasoline
Every time I tried to breathe,
Those who promised safety
Lit a match,
And told me
To be grateful for the warmth.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

I stitched away my childhood trauma
With the same thread my mother used
Only to find the pattern repeating-
Blood and bruises,
Disguised as pretty embroidery.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

They tell little girls
To bloom like flowers
Then blame us,
When cruel hands
Pluck away our petals.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

They all insist that my trauma
Is what makes me strong
But strength is just another word
For an innocent child
Who had no choice.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

My therapist asked politely
About my childhood,
And I did not know how to answer.
Do I divulge the one I lived?
Or the one I fabricated in my mind
Just to survive?

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

I grew up afraid
Of strangers and monsters,
As many children do,

But the monster I feared
Did not hide beneath my bed
Or approach me in the street,

It wore a wedding ring,
And a smile,
And slept peacefully in the next room.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

I spent my entire life
Watering everyone else’s garden,

And neglected the fact
That I was wilting, too.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

My country told me
I was free
But freedom with chains
Of silver and gold
Is just
A prettier prison.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

You asked for a passion like wildfire
Then screamed when I became the sun.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

I brought my favourite fluffy pillow
My rainbow pyjamas,
And a big smile.

Her mother said,
“We’re so glad to have you here!”
And it felt like love.

That night, I cried quietly
In her guestroom,
Because her family was nicer to me
Than mine ever was.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

Throughout my entire childhood
My family taught me how to survive
And not how to feel
That is why I grew up
Mistaking pain
For home.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

They called it 'discipline'
When he removed his leather belt
But love should not leave
A roadmap of red welts
Across your childhood.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

I built a home
(At least I really tried to)
Within your ashtray hands,
But you were always
A storm incarnate
You left me completely
Shattered in the wreckage
Of my own splintered heart
Wondering why I ever bothered
To call you safe.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

In the end,
I was just a collection of memories
Fading away
Like footprints in the sand.

-C.C
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[Cindy 👽 @schizoauthor]

I have seemingly been
Holding my icy breath
For as long as I can recall
And between menthol cigarette breaks
Paper dust in my lungs
And your unrequited love
I think I would like to learn
How to breathe again.

-C.C
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