i just relapsed after MONTHS because i tried talking about it to my bf hoping it will help but it only triggered me moreππ I'm such a fucking failure
genuinely where do you cut when you're in an active relationship? he sees me naked, so even fucking underboob is off limits. i just did a long cat scratch on the side of my thigh to fake a shaving accident but it's nowhere near enough to satisfy me
social worker saw i was picking at my nails and genuinely said "I'd rather you cut yourself than pick at your nails, that's disgusting" mind you I'm in the ward for a suicide attempt.
only thing i remember from my overdose is when i got to the ER and they weighted me. heard the number and immediately got reminded of why i attempted in the first place