Alif Irfan

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

get up again. try again. pray again. become disciplined again. belieave again. trust yourself again.

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

when all the anger wear off and you just start cryingg wondering why you are the way you are.

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

31 May 2025 took pieces of me i never knew i could lose. i thought time would heal it but here i am still wondering why some pain refuses to leave.

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

"Siang malam umi doakan irfan" apa lagi untuk hidup tidak bersyukur? setakat orang berkata , please know between us is nothing andd know your placee. i been real to everybody if not teach me to beingg a angel likee youu.

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

karma is going to hit some of y'all real hard for breaking people who had nothing against u.

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

i miss you too but i know it's safer for us to stay apart.

[• يمنى♡• @yumnah_elkhabir]

Amin

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

i know loving me isn't easy , thank you for doing it anyway.

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

working on myself , not to become worthy of someone , but to learn how to overcome the feelings of guilt I have toward myself .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

don't care who judges me because they'll never understand what ive had to survive to be here .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

May allah always have countless ways to keep me on his path , guiding me back everytime i fall.

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

i can't remember what i wore 3 days ago but i can tell you exactly how - i felt in may 2024 .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

a lifetime is long , then make sure the one with you is the one who doesn't make you feel the hurt will come back .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

oh , to be loved in a way that doesn't keep you guessing . to be chosen without conditions. to be held like leaving was never an option. to feel safe in someone's presence . to be loved effort doesn't feel forced. to be loved without asking .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

no one will know that i spend my entire day just questioning my worth .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

still trying to believe there's someone out there who loves everything i hate about myself .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

never removed anyone from my life , they all died in the accident of trust .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

Grateful for all that i have , all that i am and all that is coming my way .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

it hurt more because it came from you , the one i thought would understand me the most . so , i will never forget that you could helped me lift my burden but instead you made it heavier .

[Alif Irfan @seanftpablo]

can't even see my own worth anymore and that hurts more than i know to explain .