GUYS IM SO HAPPY MY FRIEND IS ACTUALLY DOING BETTER, I THINK, HE JUST HAD A TERRIBLE EPISODE LAST NIGHT, I THINK HE’S DOING BETTER, THANK GOD, IM SO HAPPY
I honestly wish I could talk about my friend more, it’s a really complicated story, but basically, he’s really depressed, and has BPD, he has really good days and really bad days, he’s been really good for a while, but now, he’s having an awful episode again
I don’t want to lose him dude, I can hardly fucking breathe, and i’m shaking like crazy, oh my god dude please, im so scared for him, i love him so much, i hate this
I wanna cry, I’m so fucking scared I hate this, I hate everything, I want him to get better, but I feel like no matter what it’ll make things worse, I feel like puking, I’m genuinely terrified of him going
Usually, I’m able to help him somewhat, before this, he got this bad ones before, and I accidentally told his parents about it, which got him in a lot of trouble, honestly I’m terrified of doing anything right now, I want to help him, I don’t wanna lose him
I fucking hate myself so much, dude, my friend keeps talking about committing, and I try to help him but I can’t do anything, I’m so fucking scared, and sick to my stomach, I wanna cry, I love him so much, I hate seeing him like this, I want to help him more than anything else
I want him to be okay, that’s all I want, but then I start feeling like an awful person whenever I have mental health problems, I feel like I’m not allowed to suffer because of how bad he’s doing, I don’t wanna focus on myself, purely for him