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for the record this is self destructive |this is a vent account| 25 y/o

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unpinning at 115

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@elderisback unfortunately my boyfriend too :( caught him watching it and felt so unloved

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fucked up 33 hours into my fast with a kolache 😪

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it’s 400 cal…

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fucked up 33 hours into my fast with a kolache 😪

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only 24 hours into my fast
at 142 lbs with clothes on and at 9 pm
hope to break the 40’s by the end of it

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her being my biggest insecurity and comparing myself to her… her posting this feels like a direct personal attack

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can I get to 120 by may 9th? :[

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144

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need to shop for my trip but I didn’t lose any weight so idk how i’ll look by the time it comes and my bf is depressed bc his dad has cancer so I can’t work out otherwise he’s sad if I leave him 😫

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realistically how much can I lose in a month

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genuinely the worst at having an eating disorder lmao

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been inconsistent
I had 4 months to lose 40 lbs and i’m pretty sure I weigh the same and now half just a month

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this is not happening lmao

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lowkey not goal is to be 130 by march which means I gotta lose 15 lbs 🤨

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okay fine 135

i’m scared i’m gonna binge

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2/5: 145.20
depress with no appetite

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don’t know how much I weigh rn but i’m on a 1098 deficit so I will update weekly how much i’m weighing in starting tomorrow

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1/27: 145

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bf and I back together
wish I lost like 10lbs more before then but oh well

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okay stuff is coming out of both ends and I might actually be sick now

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will try to keep going till I break from the 140’s