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. ☽ unemployed depression era // vent acc // 25 // she/they ☾ .

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At this point I'd consider myself recovered. But I've come back to my online diary to whine into the void about my other crises 😭

So I'm not going to interact with ED triggering content but I love u all the same

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I love having to vacuum while I'm sick bc my bf is on his period.. Assuming he's still my bf after all that's happened this week 😭

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@lzndon Blind Guardian

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The state that the US is in literally has me shaking sometimes.

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I've been writing in this cute little script, and decided that instead of cxtt1ng myself, I'd write all the bad things I feel

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@dietserotonin Mommyyyyyyy??!!?!! U look GORG frrr

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How do i stay strong and move forward when my world is crashing down around me before my eyes? How do I rebuild when I have nothing to lean on?

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Give me love in my ass 💀💀💀💀😭😭😭😭😭

[ִֶ @usagifull]

plsss do thisss !!

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And now it's been confirmed that my office/position will be dissolved. No time line given, but they're moving some people to a new state "ASAP" so uh...

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I just want to feel loved, but I don't deserve it

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@OneLuckyGirl_28 Him to love me unconditionally again, better mental health

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Any adults on #edtwt interested in being vent moots? I really need to let some stuff out and am more than happy to listen to/help someone else 🤍🤍

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@hypokgs Hey, could I join? :)

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@funkywunkymind Yess it's soo good I love those

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So now I can (mostly) get my work done. At the expense of my temperament, mental health, and relationship. I hate this, but I want to be medicated.

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Ok here's my life update since I was last here: I'm now on adhd meds which tanked my appetite and sleep schedule. The adhd is doing good, but my mood feels awful and has only gotten worse. This exacerbated by my relationship problems, which is just creating a feedback loop...

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And bc I'm never hungry (unless I smoke weed) I keep forgetting to eat. At first I just figured I'll try my best to eat and try not to think about weight. But the longer it goes on and the more weight I lose, the harder it is to want to eat bc of the Ana thoughts all coming back

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🚬💊🫗 Medicated Relapse Era ☠️🍸💔

[Nostos @NostosLit]

― Sylvia Plath

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Ik it's no super drastic edtwt transformation, just what the meds did to my body that's now fucking up my brain. I'm getting the hunger-high again...

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So here's my Vyvanse before & after (~6 mo)