And it's really really lonely, and there's so much I want to say, but I just can't. Like I'm stuck inside some sort of flesh cage I must of built for myself without noticing. When I'm able to talk, it feels like such a wasted amount of effort and adreneline..
A lot of people who were really important to me cause me so much pain, everything changes and it can't go back to the way it was before. I'm tired of daydreaming about the past, I want to feel positive about the future