Selia Of EdBpdtwt

BPD, PTSD, anxiety disorder, eating disorder, depression
I want to die why can't I die why why why
I don't want anything just kill me I can't do this anymore

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

‧ ꒰ Selia
#edtwt #bpdtwt 𓂃 ꒱

♣︎ ₊˚ ᰔ ┆ ꒰ she / her ⊹ 18 ꒱
⋆⟡ 167cm ┆ gw : 46.5 kg ݁ ˖

Under 14 DNI

I want to die bro. Absolutely Suicidal🙏

This is my personal journal because I can't take it anymore. I'm an irrational little fuck deal with it xx

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

Real omg

[꒰ა yua .ᐟ.ᐟ @telepathyangell]

i am one minor inconvenience away from ending it all

[Shikamiya @Shikamiya_]

''this was be my last attempt ill never do this again''

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

If it causes cancer it's a win win
I wish I can get cancer I won't be treated I'd just die in peace with tons of painkillers omg my dream

[amora ♡ ﹒ forced recov @amorafawn]

”but look at the ingridient-” ITS LOWCAL I DONT CARE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 THIS COULD CAUSE ME CANCER AND I WOULDNT CARE 😭😭😭😭😭

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

2 different things actually

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

@May_ns1 Fr man. And idk why yours would say that too, there are bigger issues she should look into than whether youre destroying your life or not haha

[milo @bnuyhophop]

how life speaks to me lately

[﹕ ꒰ა 𝐂𝐚𝐦 .ᐟ ֹ ₊ @SeraphiCam]

How life has been feeling lately

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

Fr my memory and brain capabilities are so horrible because of my mental health it's not even funny

[feelings ღ @eternaltxts]

not to sound Uhhh suicidal but being alive is like a job i never signed up for and i am very burnt out

[Argie @notevenrg]

when depression starts to feel comforting

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

@blushbinge Bpd ptsd ed anxiety disorder depression
Sigh

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

@ezijeil This is you wanting to gain back the control you lost on yourself once by trying to see inside your body to be able to at least control that lol. Stay safe honey xx

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

@xmadelinezx I grew up quickly biologically, everyone was small compared to me a tall chubby kid and that was horrible lol

[LU @_1lws]

I wish I had died as a child .

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

situational depression (reactive) and endogenous depression (biological) are NOT the same, situational is a reaction that will stop when a person gets away from the horrible situation. Endogenous depression is very hard to defeat cause it has no physical reason, just old stuff xx

[Selia Of EdBpdtwt @seliakys27]

Hot take but I don't believe depressed people with horrible life that get better after going out of the situation are actually depressed. Youre just aware of how horrible your surroundings are. Depression is about having a pretty normal/good life and youre still depressed