s1ms

god's favorite soldier┊venttwt, edtwt┊dni if fatphobic / non-edtwt

[s1ms @selphharm]

im like a nonpracting ed-haver

[s1ms @selphharm]

i'm just feeling pretty insecure and jealous and lonely!!!! but whatever #yolo

[s1ms @selphharm]

having a lot of emotions. mostly the bad ones.

[s1ms @selphharm]

i think of you more often than not and i dream of you and i'm jealous

[s1ms @selphharm]

i just want so badly

[s1ms @selphharm]

everyday i say god please let me get what i want and everyday i am let down

[s1ms @selphharm]

like maybe i do want to sit in it forever. maybe i want to engage and engage and engage and have nothing change and make myself miserable about the inability of it to be different. is that so wrong

[s1ms @selphharm]

the issue is that i really do know how to make it stop i know that some of these behaviors are unhealthy. the core of it all is that i don't really want it to stop

[s1ms @selphharm]

ohhh i'm gonna have to KILL myself

[s1ms @selphharm]

playing will i dream of him roulette. wish me luck!

[s1ms @selphharm]

it's been getting better but sometimes it's late at night and i want and i want and i want

[s1ms @selphharm]

fuck

[s1ms @selphharm]

There Is Something Wrong In My Brain

[s1ms @selphharm]

teach me how to not stare at you. ohhhhh my god

[s1ms @selphharm]

ohhhh my god ohh my god. oh my god

[s1ms @selphharm]

i keep dreaming of him what's going on

[s1ms @selphharm]

it is so OVER

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i would be so good at it. it would be so easy. why is it out of reach

[s1ms @selphharm]

it's been getting better but sometimes it's late at night and i want and i want and i want

[s1ms @selphharm]

like actually genuinely what the fuck what the fuckkkkkkkk

[s1ms @selphharm]

i'm sorry it sucks but selfishly i'm glad to know this is as hard for you as it is for me