And talk to me about it
My mom keep worrying recently so many things and I advice her to not worry etc etc
But ... I'm myself even actually full of worrying in my heart ,mind everytime but I hide it
Earlier, my mother told me about her closeness to her older sister's child (her name is Ety, I call her Uni Ety). My mother said that she always accompanies her when she wants to go to the market to buy.... the important thing is that my mother often feels nostalgic. And t
Some weeks ago I also dreamt i saw a woman talking seriously and I saw her saliva dripped out so much , her face look angry and she didn't have eye brows.
Just yesterday I dreamt that I šaw a woman she skinny, sHe pouted her mouth at me and there was also a man who pointed his Index finger at me.. the woman wear blue dress
Why I dreamt that strange but how maybe because I'm in deepresion
Sinceong time I often get dream that strange often frightening too but the most weird I even remember the dream details isnt that weird,
I even remember at 2012 I dreamt that I saw four alligator under my stairs I also dreamt i saw some dead people inside the hole and blue skin
Since long time I often have scary dreams, I'm afraid to sleep. . I even remember at 2023 I dreamt i saw a woman with red dress Keeping a pair of pliers inside her dress , that's weird and frightening me I saw a black cat came to me that time too but luckily i woke up
I don't know if God still wants to give me a chance to have a good future because I have tried everything and failed.. and can't explain what I did so many and failed but times Time flies so fast that I'm getting more and more desperate right now so I don't know what should do.
If time could be turned back, I would like to be a normal person, sociable and not easily offended, but if only God would give me better health first so that my father wouldn't forbid me so much.
4 and often mäde some people misunderstood me because my father, but that's fine my father was a nice person.. My dad always takes care of me when I'm sick... My father can't Can't drive, dad didn't dare, but dad is good at cooking, My dad doesn't really buy clothes.
1 recently me no longer the same person as me before. Now I am more mellow,I actually often felt lonely when I was a teenager, even when I was 20, even though I was stressed, I wasn't like me now I was orientation to myself woke up morning arrange myself , midday till night
3 and we talked... I usually Usually I confide in my dad and he always says don't worry, everything will be fine.. :) my father wasn't perfect human , no one in this wotld perfect too.
I was not perfect daughter too.. my father also too much forbid me many things and... Ofte
Nostalgic:There's me here I was 3 years old in the lubuk Sikapimg with my family,parents and my father's family the youngest brother with family,also my father's older brother too
I still remember even only u was only 3 years old but I remember some..
I built myself up anything but kept failed,I was up and down again and I up again and down again and untill now.. I don't know what actually m future or anything I'm afraid of many thing I panic often like crazy but I'm not crazy ya. but I'm in deepresion I am
Many years ago around I was 19 something I got very heavy depression more than I was teenager i had some problems gave me trauma and sadness.. I was treated from various sources until I was okay, then my father passed away. I was very sad.. but I had spirit to live my life
These are the crepe paper flowers that mams made at 2021 that time, mama was very happy to make it Mom made it for me on special occasions, that my mo,and until now the flowers is still in the living room look ugly now,and Mama's eyes are not clear enough also to see it