Both humiliated and pleased by how bad everything I wrote when I was a teenager is. All that intensity just to end up with melodramatic, desperate gesturing and the reassurance that I've left nothing behind me by stripping my sentimentality away
Most people stop here by assuming that because the tension is psychological, it's false and harmless. But it's more than possible to go awry here and die, because you can't exult in a victory where you couldn't have lost
Self-help posts like “it actually was as easy as just drinking water going outside & having a sleep schedule lol” can’t exist without the counterbalance of what they’re coming from, with the lie of the discovered ‘happiness’ being discontinuous from their unhappiness
Bad habits can also be a way to divert frustration into harmless, self-invented problems that provide the sensation of development and power when you "overcome them", see procrastination
Being unable to impose yourself or gain anything from the world around you forces all victories to become personal, the battles of which the mind will furnish.
Bad habits can also be a way to divert frustration into harmless, self-invented problems that provide the sensation of development and power when you "overcome them", see procrastination
Happiness is the comparison of the present with the past - through a trick like this you can make the difference greater, because the great thing about ruining yourself is that it's real.
Bad habits are a decadent's way to build up enough contempt to try and slingshot yourself back over to the other side, a way of forcing pressure on yourself. The virtues of 'self-hatred'.
This obviously applies to the adult as well, but by then it's probably too late, already gone in kicking and screaming and spiteful. I would know best.
Constantly putting speech marks and quotations around words is my bad habit, but I can't really do without it since words just gather too much weight in this language, I need a method of conceptualizing them
@sneed8679 Probably large scale "education" isn't possible as a prescriptive science since the matching of responsibility and increase of freedom to a person's capability is something that can't be separated from their individual personality
@sneed8679 Education now is wrapped up in such obscene dysfunction that a point like this is too heady for my meaning, I mean the fact that every single classroom has a student saying "when are we going to use this" is a grotesque failure, school itself creating the physically unteachable