Every time they call my name I immediately tear
It's annoying
I don't know why am I crying
But I can't stop crying
Even when the conversation is irrelevant
I just cry
But my parents are being too kind about it
Why are you telling me you are proud when I did so bad
Why aren't you telling me I am weak
It's crazy i can't even process support
I feel so ungrateful having such support but it's not even passing through my stupid stubborn mind
The worst thing is I know I am doing the same mistake again
I get stuck in my head
I miss opportunities to do stuff
I just keep replaying the same scene when I know I can do something much useful
I hate I am this weak
I wish I have someone to slap me and tell me to suck it up