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22 | ballet dancer ? | sw: 225lbs | cw: ngl i don’t know | lw: 129.4lbs | gw: i just want my lw back 😭 | ugw: 85lbs | autistic | dni if fatphobic/bigoted

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busted my ass in ballet all morning and now i’m walking the 40 minutes to downtown instead of taking a bus because i’m sooooo normal

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it’s below 50°, that means it’s relapse weather

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skipped my meds for a week so i could have grapefruit juice, which was going fine until about 12 hours ago but now i feel so incredibly sick and i want to DIE

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i want everyone who told me i had potential growing up to see what i’ve become. if im not allowed to have hope, they shouldn’t be either

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i can not afford a drug addiction bro

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cvtting open my wrists would fix me actually

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i need to be in an abusive relationship again

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cutting and burning arent enough i need to be dead

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cvtting to cope >>>

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is anyone active on here anymore ? this relapse has been so boring without anyone to talk to

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crashing out and crying in a corner 20 minutes before ballet class <3 i want to kill myself <3

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should we throw a party ? should we invite bella hadid ?

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shtwt what do you do if cvts won’t stop bleeding ? they’re not even that deep but every time i change the bandage its fresh blood and i did them like 14 hours ago. i had to change the bandage on my arm after class this morning because i bled through it like this is absurd

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omad 360cals

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what if i k^ll myself early in the morning on november first what then

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“im gonna pull an all nighter itll be so fun” please put me out of my misery why didnt i realise this was a bad idea

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didn’t check if i had gauze wraps before i sh and now im standing here covered in blood wtf do i do

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iiiiiii should get blackout drunk tonight

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i’m dressed as a cat rn. its just getting in character

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the feminine urge to slit my wrists after ballet class <3