All I want in the whole wide world is to be cared for and all I do is tirelessly work to conceal my every need while caring for everyone I can and performing a childlike carefree and bubbly nature that belies the loneliness and dread that eats me alive
Everyone I've ever loved has left me and everyone I like likes someone else more and I have to be normal about it and act like it doesn't eat me alive to my core
being in a state of melancholy is so weird bc how do I explain that I can laugh and giggle all day but I feel this persistent wave of sadness that lingers through me all the time