𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬.

[۟ @sidereumnoxe]

⠀you’re a mess of good intentions gone wrong. you strike a match on yourself to keep others warm, and now the whole world’s on fire. you try to put it out, and you try so hard. the dam breaks, and the waters of your sorrow pour free.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

@internimpulse “it’s gonna be hard and intense, yeah.”
he nodded slowly in agreement even though lennon couldn’t see, letting out a sigh as he stopped what he was doing to run his fingers through his hair. “do you think you’ll be awake when i get to the hospital?” he asked.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

“i don’t know if he needs me yet. he doesn’t know what he needs.”
he explained softly as he let out a sigh. “he’s currently stuck in the bathroom with ali.”

[𝑙𝑒͟𝑛͟𝑛͟𝑜𝑛. @internimpulse]

“I’ll be fine for one night. If josh needs you.”
she shrugged as she looked to elliot again momentarily.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

uh, sure?
i just have to check in with lennon first.

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

want to come get drunk?

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

acting like what’s happening isn’t happening.
talk to me. let me help.

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

what?

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

stop.

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

🫦

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

stop that.

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

feeling horrendous.
pretending everything is fine 🙂.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

@internimpulse “i think he’s struggling with processing what’s going to happen tomorrow.”
he responded as he let out a shaky breath. “he keeps saying his stomach hurts, but i think it’s anxiety or something.”

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

@internimpulse “no, i don’t think he’s throwing up. i just think he can’t move right now.”
he explained as he began walking around the kitchen to clean up more, a way of distracting himself.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

“i can’t do that? i know you don’t like being alone in the hospital?”
he rambled as he held his phone to his ear, his eyebrows furrowed slightly.

[𝑙𝑒͟𝑛͟𝑛͟𝑜𝑛. @internimpulse]

“okay— you can stay home tonight if you want to?”
she asked softly as she let out a small breath.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

“you know that’s the only way we’re getting you out of that hospital room, baby.”
he explained softly as he let out a shaky breath. “i might get to the hospital late tonight. i want to make sure josh is okay before i leave him, ali and zoie.”

[𝑙𝑒͟𝑛͟𝑛͟𝑜𝑛. @internimpulse]

“okay.”
she nodded a few times and looked to elliot briefly before looking back to the grass in front of her. “in the chair?”

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

of course.

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

okay.. thank you.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

that’s okay.
just… shout if you need me.

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

I don’t know.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

he could sense her hesitation even through the phone, nodding slowly as he sighed.
“okay, baby. i’ll talk to your doctors or something when i get there later.” he said softly.

[𝑙𝑒͟𝑛͟𝑛͟𝑜𝑛. @internimpulse]

she hesitated and ran her fingers over her forehead in slightly irritation.
“we can make it work..”

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

do you need anything??

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

okay, okay.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

“i know— but relax.”
he said softly as he picked his phone up from where he’d set it on the counter so she could be on speaker, taking it off speaker to hold to his ear. “we can make it work, right? be there for josh?”

[𝑙𝑒͟𝑛͟𝑛͟𝑜𝑛. @internimpulse]

“tomorrow?!”
she basically snapped back, expecting they’d have had more than a few hours notice.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

no, but that’s what chairs are for, silly.

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

okay, okay.
but can your wife even walk??

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

“hey.”
he said softly, standing in the kitchen trying to clean up a little while zayden was napping. “mabel’s funeral is tomorrow.”

[𝑙𝑒͟𝑛͟𝑛͟𝑜𝑛. @internimpulse]

seeing the caller ID, she picked up her phone and held it to her ear, arching a brow.
“hello?”

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

stop it. we will be.

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

okay but.. don’t worry if you can’t be.

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

we will.

[𝒋𝒐͟𝒔͟𝒉 @candidflaws]

you will?

[𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐬. @shadowsblazed]

instead of replying, he’s calling lennon, knowing she was spending time with elliot while he was spending the day with zayden.

[𝑙𝑒͟𝑛͟𝑛͟𝑜𝑛. @internimpulse]

📲 : husband ❤️‍🔥

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