normalize saying “unfortunately you’re no longer a safe person for me and I refuse to continually sacrifice my nervous system to make you feel comfortable”
i stood at a door you refused to close, hoping you'd either invite me or let me leave. instead, i learned that some people mistake indecision for kindness, while the one left waiting mistakes hope for love.
It's so selfish to enter someone's life, see that they're a loving, cheerful, and good person, and decide to ruin their peace because you haven't dealt with your own issues. Leave people alone if you have no intention of showing up with sincerity.
I hope you realize how much I loved you. I hope you realize how deeply it broke me when you started all of this, only to give me inconsistency in return. I accepted the hurt, even as it slowly consumed me.
I hope you know how hard it is for me to let go, because despite everything, I truly wanted the best for us. But every time I looked for certainty, all I got was, “I don’t know.”