btw i dreamt that i met harry styles while i was drinking a cup of tea and he asked me to join him for a tea date and he fell deep in love with me and i had to choose between him or my boyfriend. just thought id share this with you.
“You've got that touch, you've got a way of making everything okay
You've got that face that I relate to feeling comfort, feeling safe
When I don't have a place to go, my love, it's you that takes me home”
#shawnmendes#eddiebenjamin#home@ShawnAccess@ShawnMendes
okay so if you think im ungrateful or if you don’t like what im saying, keep in mind that im on my pcd rn lmao. but i’m so so so so sad that after 6 concerts in which 3 of them i was barricade or 2nd row, i got NO INTERACTION with shawn… i feel invisible. :((
@mendeshesitate my eyes literally were stuck on him and he didn’t look at me, not once. worst part is that in 2 of those 3 shows where i was close, he looked and interacted with my boyfriend more than once….
@mendeshesitate i literally can’t stop crying and i feel so stupid cuz i’m like …. “why am i crying over someone that doesn’t know i exist” but the love is so strong that i just can’t help it and wish he knew it
anyway, all of this to say that i’m heartbroken that after being a fan for 10 years and having this insane love for him that is incomparable with anything i’ve ever felt i still feel completely invisible. i was right there in front of me and he still didn’t see me…
and i know it’s dumb to say this but i genuinely don’t think that most ppl that got the barricade hugs have as much love for him as i have (this is the pcd talking probably but pls validate my feelings lmao)