shells

[shells @shellsandjules]

yo bitches highkey playin in my face ion even don’t gaf anymore to u a fuckin bum basic ass bitch omg😭😭😭😭🙏🏻
i CANNOT believe this shit i’m so fuckin dead😭😭

[shells @shellsandjules]

youre so far away from me. i cant feel you anymore. i cant feel you. i cant feel you. why did you go so far away. i cant feel you. why did you do that. why are you doing this. if youre going to answer me, answer me. where are you where did you go.

[shells @shellsandjules]

i can’t feel you anymore

[shells @shellsandjules]

weak. it doesn’t hurt. its rendered me weak

[shells @shellsandjules]

now that i’m out of bed im j irritated as fuck who do you think you are

[shells @shellsandjules]

bruh oh my god just fucking kill me PLEASSSSEEEE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 lawd my pain is so fucking funny isn’t it😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 oh my fucking god i wanna disappear😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[shells @shellsandjules]

i’m about to blow my shit clean off. i havent slept. god i haven’t been able to sleep at night for 3 days. i’m so fucking depressed oh my god it takes over my life.
and im a bird too.
a fat fucking bird yo both literally and figuratively why don’t we j put me down omg uggh i cant

[shells @shellsandjules]

just woke from an episode of delusion. actually might be my entire life. i think im having an epiphany

[shells @shellsandjules]

i am NOT going to behave myself why don’t you just fucking killl meeeee goddddddddd i really just be pissed off and depressed all the time somebody pull the fucking trigger on me god i wanna be roadkill so bad ill never hurt myself with my own hands but lord please put it upon me

[shells @shellsandjules]

so i might wanna talk to my doctor about this. i’m gonna crack my skull open. i be dtm way too often. get these emotions out of me yo😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[shells @shellsandjules]

i’m fucking sick😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[shells @shellsandjules]

coming and going coming and going god i wish things would just stay

[shells @shellsandjules]

i hate creeps

[shells @shellsandjules]

aaaaand we’re gonna try fasting. wish i had a blood test everyday

[shells @shellsandjules]

i’ve spent all summer passively watching movies and waiting around. all this waiting makes me feel confined. like i’ve been put in a box and i just can’t seem to allow myself to be any more than what i believe someone else is expecting. i’ve got to start living on my own terms

[shells @shellsandjules]

yes. a fresh start. i can always use a fresh start. that’s all i needed. i knew it. a fresh slate to build a new community. i’ll get rid of this one too eventually. i prefer the untouchability of being anonymous

[shells @shellsandjules]

i think i’m unamused. and also i feel caged. think i need to block a few people. or maybe i just need a new account. yeah probably that. oh yeah def that. i thought of it earlier. just remembered.

[shells @shellsandjules]

damn i don’t remember tweeting half the things i’ve tweeted in the past week. def a good idea for her to have taken me off prozac i do not need my memory any worse than it already is. i feel like im riding some strange wave.

[shells @shellsandjules]

i think my blood test is next week. i’ve a deep desire to scare the shit out of myself rn so i think i’ll watch something scary. i’ve had enough unconsensual anxiety today. time for some self-induced consensual anxiety. lol idk i thought that was an amusing thing to say.

[shells @shellsandjules]

ahahahahahahahaha shoot me😂😂😂😂😂