if you do not see god/universe as a friend that always has your back no matter what, you will never be able to experience a version of them that acts that way. and that is a kind of misforture in itself.
And it only happened bc this was my first attempt to look for love, after more than a year. Then my soulmate waltzed in. I was broken, gave up on finding love completely and then had the pieces picked up by exactly the right person with the most tender love I had ever experienced
TW: SA
Just stop looking, make peace w what you have/where you are now and it’ll all come to you. Mind you, I had to make peace w being drugged and raped three weeks prior to meeting Lor. But bc of that I just “gave up” looking for shit at the core of my being (not js shallowly)
If you keep seeing 4 44 444 or 4444 it’s a sign of stability and grounding
It means your foundation is strong YOU are on the right path and your progress is aligned
Saw four white boys running through the street behind my house last night calling each other racist slurs as a hahaha moment… wtf bro whites really be comfy when they THINK they alone (some dgaf in public either but what’s new)
what i have done with no mentor no therapy no medication as far as healing myself goes, is not only a testament to my OWN power and resiliency, but the unseen forces that have held my hand and protected me throughout my life. i should have been dead many times and here i am
Laughing my ass off at the principle of “respect your elders” in my family bro. Had I taken my uncles and shit as examples I would’ve ended up in the GUTTER
I’m better off doing my own shit and keeping my circle close. Fuck fam.
Smoking weed disconnects you from the spiritual world
Stoners THINK it’s the opposite
Because they get mildly psychedelic on it
But the proof is in dreams
You can’t dream when you smoke weed
And dreams are the most common connection to the spiritual world
Castrating drug.
I barely dream ab celebrities in general bc I don’t idolize them like most do, not even my fave artists. They’re just humans, not some god (with all due respect for their artistry). It parasocial so I really am confused why tf I dreamt about her.
Had ab four dreams tonight, most ab family matters that really helped but
Also ab young miko?? Girl she was so gorgeous and kind, but I’ve only started listening to her music recently so I can’t say I’m like.. a fan yet bc I don’t knew her persona, hella confused rn
You cannot blame me for some shit that’s actually your fault, lmao I simply wont tolerate it and I will break it down to why exactly it’s your fault and not mine.
If you offer me a sincere apology and change your behavior, I will not bring up "the past" again. However, if you apologize with no change in behavior, not only is that manipulation, but what you call "the past" is actually the present.