mandyer

you and i need to be brave

[mandyer @shoreline143]

So I went to a Japanese restaurant to do a trial for a kitchen hand job. At one point I feel a quick sense of de javu and it felt bizarre yet fascinating.

[mandyer @shoreline143]

It's ok, I will be ok.

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Be kind, I said. But somehow I keep trying to be kind to everyone else but myself. Be kind, even to yourself. Yes, I am telling this to myself.

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Sometimes I replay what I said to someone during the day, then I beat myself up thinking I shouldn't have said that. But I am human, and making mistakes is a very common human trait. I hope I will be able to give myself grace and not overthink everything soon.

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I just unmatched someone who offered to take me to a nice dinner just because I realised too late that I don't want to compromise my preference 😭

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I met with the guy I mentioned in my previous tweet again. He brought me to a networking event made by Japanese community. It was fun. Met many people. He held my hand. But he just want to be friends. So I cut him off - clean. The end *for real*.

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Went on a date tonight (third date I have ever been to). He was nice and kind. He treated me well (full act of service). He held my hand when I complained that it was too cold. But when I explained my boundaries, he asked whether he can be my first kiss. I said no. The end.

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Just got scammed. About to buy a secondhand digicam but turns out I got scammed. All the signs are there, I was just too excited to see it :)

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I still can't believe that I am plotting to not reach out to my senior at work tomorrow in hope for extra breathing space and hope he will forget that I exist. Wow.

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It's sad how now I can relate to people who says that they have a noisy mind at night.

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I just woke up from a 12 hours sleep. Why do I feel like this is gonna be my first and last 12 hours sleep in 2026? It's so hard to get 12 hours these days with work and all that hihi

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Kaget sih.. di rumah rasanya kayak hermit dan harus keluar biar ada kegiatan dikit. Pas udah di luar, menyesal karna rame bet.

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I just did a PR video and I don't feel good about it. I guess the result either will be a blessing to me or it will become a very bad digital track hahahahahahahha

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I'm kinda worried with myself since I started to imagine a life with an Idol. It's definitely not normal, but it makes me happy.

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I'm at client site, and I just realised something. I think I like men in suit.

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Feeling so blue

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I hope when I get back here, it'll be me reporting good days. Maybe my sister will come and visit me, it'll be even better if my parents come visit again. One can always wish and hope :)

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I know I'll feel this way. I can't help it..

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So now coming home to a home with my flatmate only is quite sad.

[mandyer @shoreline143]

I remember feeling so happy when my family visited me. I also remember thinking how sad I'd be when I have to come back home alone. I went back to Indonesia with my mom (my dad and sis head back first several days before my flight).