You need boredom. A lot of it. Start by going on walks without music. No stimulation. No distractions of any kind. If you learn to sit with your own thoughts, for long enough, in time they will start serving you. You'll start having ideas once again. You'll start developing an extreme sense of clarity that will shift you into the next stage of your life. All by being bored, which is pretty insane.
I’m the girl who handles all her hard days in silence. I don’t complain much, I don’t always ask for help, & I rarely vent. I carry my own weight & I’ll always move through life with that I’ll figure it out mindset.