mon rêve un peu niche serait de mourir d’un suicide et de pouvoir assister à la réaction de chaque personne de mon entourage, voir qui serait réellement touché, qui regretterait certaines choses, qui se sentirait coupable et qui continuerait sa vie sans se soucier de moi
@literallymej Not only do I not blame them, I envy them. They had the courage and willpower to overcome the fear of pain and death and actually succeeded in ending their suffering forever.
why am i a pussy why cant i throw myself off a building already or just slit till i bleed out why am i so pathetic i am good at literally nothing and never have been
I take my adderall and listen to Crystal Castles (2008) on repeat and pretend I am a robot and this is the only way I have been able to sit in the library in my four years of college and do my fucking work