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i don't have a reason to put anything here anymore.

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I'm aware some n//ft bullshit got ahold of this account, hopefully it's fixed now

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either way im doing really not ok and im really wanting to go away for a long long time

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@werewolfdeluxe twin peaks fans develop an internet weirdcore resistance shield over time

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hate relapsing when im doing this badly but here we are

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wow i fucking hate being talked over

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reached a point where ive become almost completely numb and just. dont give a shit about anything anymore.and its a chore to just be alive

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its gotten back to being bad enough that i stay in bed most of the time and today is a really bad day

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ive been clean and sober for a while but its time to drink to make the hurting stop again :)

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there's a deep ache and unhappiness that frequently pops up and it sinks into my stomach like a brick. where it convinces me I'll d/ie alone. that I'm meant to

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goodnight

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i need a way out of here. cant stand this bullshit

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my dad will insult me and harass me to my face and then get upset at me because i dont love him or show him "respect"

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completely dissociates while playing an idle game

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feeling very

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i think i should let myself go to bed early. goodnight

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its wild to me that there's ppl who just live their day to day life without being in pain. wish that was me

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i have a decent wip for once now if only i could get the motivation to finish

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bitches really will talk over you then get mad at you for staying quiet huh

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and I'm frequently replaced

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I'm entirely replaceable