Every time I see an actual depiction of what happened to Him I get nauseous and am reminded that I am an evil, degenerate, retarded sinner unworthy of salvation- yet he still did this for me
If we all got what we deserved we’d all be in a lot of trouble
God wants you to remember that you're exactly where you're meant to be and that it's safe to let it all go into God's hands. Just take it one day at a time, one step at a time, and let God handle the rest.
I know the mind is spinning trying to figure everything out, and that's okay. It's just hard for God to communicate with you through all that noise. Everything will be okay. That's all you need to know right now.
So allow your soul some rest and gently open your heart to the possibility of miracles.