i really like you and it’d break me to lose you
it’s sad you don’t feel the same way
i know you don’t think of me but i’ve been thinking of you
it’s good that you don’t have to feel this way it’s hell when it feels like fate is constantly against you
so i try not to enjoy spending time with you as much as i do but it’s hard when you’re lonely and you’re deprived
you know so many people and you have so many friends that it’d be easy for you to handle the separation but i only have you and that’s scary
i really miss you but i try not to get too attached because this could end at any time
and you could leave me and move on the moment you feel like it
and then remembering all the good times would hurt
i’m scared of getting old i hope i die young and it’s not even because of the looks either but because of worsening health issues and exhaustion and cognitive fog i already have all of that and i don’t want it to become worse
fuck dude i’m worried about my life i’m an idiot i should have played it safe and gone with the transfer guarantee so i wouldn’t have to worry about this shit but i decided to aim for my dream uni instead
remembering the time yesterday when i was in the cafeteria and people said “it was nice meeting you!” and i said goodbye and waved and gave them a thumbs up without thinking like bro why did i emote 🤦♂️
i had the weirdest dreamfuck stranger things ass plot except it was with mold and the monster slowly spread through your veins and it came from my dead grandma’s ashes (she’s not dead) and grew a bunch of scary spikey plants onh the ground and started taking control of the world