randi 🧷 -91.6lbs

if ur fatphobic idc i’ve had worse shit said to me irl | it/she/they, 19, 5’5, white | edtwt autismedtwt | tw: i vent on here too

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

ambie is probably the only acceptable fatspo bc she’s a horrid person and doesn’t deserve even a scrap of kindness

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

back on my grind. my ed is always there luv u girl <3

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

like i can tell she isn’t binging. she’s not eating well past the point of fullness. she doesn’t eat all day then comes home and eats about a normal meal sized amount of food. Bestie….. i love you but shut the fuck up please

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

my bff keeps talking about how she “binges” and just. idk man. i’ve literally been stuck in binging for months since i healed from my surgery. and when she describes what she binged on it’s barely overeating. obviously i’m not there when she does it but still, it peeves me.

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

i’m here for like 30 mins every few days and then i disappear i love life

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

@xiasbakery when my set up is just underneath my mattress

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

@xiasbakery definitely gummies! and i would love to see some different cookie recipes, perhaps an icebox cookie? like the chocolate and vanilla swirl cookies from the 30s and 40s. maybe some sort of ginger snap too!

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

i love you. No you don’t. you don’t like me in the slightest. now that i’m not up your ass 24/7 you’re finally seeing it so. whatever

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

yeah they never liked you but you fucking manipulated me and stole from me and treated me like actual human shit. i should’ve never liked you but i felt bad for you. suck my balls, dipshit.

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

why would i want to ever talk to you again? you’re pregnant, but you lied and told me you would never be able to. that MULTIPLE doctors throughout your life have told you that you’re sterile. we are not buddies who lost touch bc my parents didn’t want me to be friends with you.

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

oh btw guess who’s going to steel city con and gets to see matthew lillard MEEEEEEEE I GET TO SEE SHAGGY AKA STEVE O AKA THE BEST MAN ALIVE OH MY GOF

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

not back into bc. it haunts my every meal but i just like. need to be how i was before. high at work, nothing but energy drinks in my system. i want my honeymoon phase back

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

i need to get back into my ed i wanna be a lot thinner and hotter by my bday. december 11th is much sooner than i wished it was. i’m not excited to be 20 but i want to at least be below 200 lbs :/

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

i need to get back into my ed i wanna be a lot thinner and hotter by my bday. december 11th is much sooner than i wished it was. i’m not excited to be 20 but i want to at least be below 200 lbs :/

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

god that is so annoying to me i literally don’t know how to explain it but like. god damn

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

yea no girl it’s fine i’ll apologize again bc i know that’s all u want

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

hurts. it just feels like shit.

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

i feel like i’m almost certain i’m in love with her. i want to tell her. i want to be poetic and happy and in love. but she’s dating this guy. he’s such a fucking piece of shit. he has only gotten worse as they’ve been together. i’m such a jealous nasty bitch. i almost feel mad

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

at her. simply because she’s staying with some asshole who sucks. it’s not even like i’m saying that just to make it seem like i’m justified, he barely even respects her opinions or other people. but i know now that why i went off on him is because i love her. and it just kind of

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

because i’m in love with her. i know i am now. i don’t know what to do. i want to just be her silly friend and hang out and have fun but i want so desperately to kiss her and twirl her. spoil her with gifts and food and hugs and kisses and love. what is wrong with me

[randi 🧷 -91.6lbs @skeletalrut]

i’ve never been in such close proximity to a man that is genuinely so manipulative and terrible. like she showed me a conversation they were having and it was quite literally all just him making her feel bad. ...i keep saying it’s because he looks like my rapist but it’s also