@scarrfruits think about it like getting on meds. you have to give yourself a lot of time to adjust properly. it took me about 6 months to stop feeling nauseous all the time when i came off ssris
i do in fact think you can have an eating disorder without being fatphobic, hating fat people, and being rude to fat people. having a disorder does not give you the privilege to degrade or behave offensively towards others.