this year, on spotify alone, fifty-three thousand of you listened to my songs 331,490 times and added them to more than thirteen thousand playlists
that is insane and all i can say is i'm beyond grateful that what i put my heart and soul into has done something to reach yours
i miss my bike so bad it hurts. one (1) accident that has needed repairs for months with negative emergency money and that's oneshot k-o for anything beyond the four walls that had been eating me alive as-is. the sun isn't the same like this
if you think uncomfortable conversations are hard well you're in luck because ghosting everyone in your life and dropping out of the world is super duper easy and doesn't take a toll on your mental health at all so you can just do that. no i wasn't asking. you have to do it.
considering that dαΊΉbate and the subsequent likelihood of prα»ject 2025, this is about to be an even more extreme danger to the trans women around you, so hey, read this and hot allostatic load and recognize what violent depersoning and carceral destruction of support networks does to people who were already wildly at-risk long before being liable to be the incoming state's #1 public enemy
what if u do both of these
like "theres so much damage but god its all so nebulous and hard to explain and ive never even seen x+y+z as a known condition" and then you find the right chart and youre like "LOOK. THIS IS MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY!!!!! LOOK LOOK LOOK ITS ME LOOK HOLY FUCK"
this went through 100 drafts for six weeks with the date leaping each time. stillborn and still forced
permanent dorsal vagal shutdown with sympathetic arousal (with persisting collapse hidden by fawn response) btw
didnt feel right saying https://t.co/T4TFZVn4Cl beforehand
this went through 100 drafts for six weeks with the date leaping each time. stillborn and still forced
permanent dorsal vagal shutdown with sympathetic arousal (with persisting collapse hidden by fawn response) btw
didnt feel right saying https://t.co/T4TFZVn4Cl beforehand
did you know being trapped in this is a named condition
me atm: a) post venmo and TRY to SAY WHY for 1% chance a miracle happens or b) cant move to save my life and i am 100% evicted today but i cant do that if it doesnt take up space and it never cant
i cant even close my eyes
A lot of people never actually recalibrate from Trauma Recovery Brain in which you have to retreat internally to preserve whatβs left of your basic ability to function and heal to survive. They regrow their new self on top of Trauma Recovery Brain and itβs insanely difficult to reach them.