sorry i havent really been active here. I've been a bit more active on bluesky but i think i just need....a break from online stuff for a little while. So i havent really been playing xiv much either
things in my life are getting better because Im making efforts to re-contextualize how i think about myself and my relationships. I won't get too into it, but I was allowing shitty behavior on my behalf for too long. but not anymore.
Improving and getting better are such absolutely difficult journeys that should never be downplayed in mental health. It's just as important to feel heard as it is to be alive. And it's important that we continue to listen and learn from one another
As someone who dealt with (hopefully now completely past tense) this subject matter, a lot of what this thread says is true and it's difficult to see things from the lens of others when you're hurting so badly. Loneliness can feel so isolating it only elevates the issues
Being suicidal is a very lonely place to be. Most ppl don't want to hear about it, & those who do, often run out of patience quickly. You are grappling with the decision to leave everyone & everything, something you must do alone. Unlike most other major life decisions, there 1/
I'm sorry I'm not writing this on priv but I do think it's important to be fully cognizant of these thoughts and feelings. What others feel when they have these thoughts. And how it can be a test of patience.