cosmos.

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Just here to tell I'm okay and I overcame my depression. Everything is going better than ever, still in babysteps but that is okay.

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I miss how lovable he used to be.. Two caring arms around me.. I'm so alone, he was like the only person I had regular contact with

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695 days clean

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@sadlifejpg .. I am and would easily knock me out if I start being violent

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@sadlifejpg I do too, how many times I wanted to punch him in the face or kick him in the balls. I never did bc he is alot stronger than...

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it is gone, it was all a lie it seems. wasted time.. I spend almost 2 years at his side and I'm only more confused & hurt than I was before

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I already was at a horrible spot mentally, emotionally and physically, even at school it is going horrible. He was my last grip on reality

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... all this & I figured they kinda weren't friends anymore bc my ex is just a selfish jerky who only cares about his own gains.

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.. I'm not going to calm you, since the reason you are crying is no legit reason to cry." I was so hurt. I talked with his friend about ...

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.. when I found out he wasn't joking. We talked about it and I was crying because I'm not at the best point in my life and he just said: ...

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... you right? He did, he hurt my soul. He has been jerky in the relationship but I thought that's was just joking and teasing. It stung...

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...offers/pushes all the time, he kept touching me in my personal areas & when I told him to stop, he was like: why not? I'm not hurting ...

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...any other girls for while. I felt like he was using me as just a sex doll for his seemingly addiction to sex. After rejecting his ...

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... I was still mentally processing the breakup (this shit didn't help at all) and after our sex he got mad for expecting him to not bang...

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... him enough sex. Earlier I asked him to have a respectful pause for a couple of weeks because I didn't want him to sleep around while ...

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I usually stayed the weekends at his house and he kept bugging me for more. I said I didn't want to and he got mad at me for not giving ...

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Like, some "just have sex for the pleasure" bullshit. I want sex to be a loving thing. But okay I still loved him deeply so did it.

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...than 1.5 years. So we stayed friends, hung at again. But he still wanted sex. I was still processing the break up but he kept pushing.

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he told me it wasn't about him not loving me, he did love me, but he couldn't handle a relationship even tho we've been together for more...

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I broke up with my boyfriend, couple days before Christmas. It has been an emotional rollercoaster