rotting fruit

he/him, 20, call me Jam!

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

also i want the decor cause im special

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

a cause I eat all the cake from within the frosting and then have the frosting after and there's more of it so it's a better two part meal

[Food Pleaser @FoodPleaser]

🍰 Which piece of cake are you choosing?

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

@bloodstreamrunz a lot of anorexics present atypically, eating disorders as a whole also have a lot of sporadic short duration presentation, and there's a lot of discussions going on about ortho as a classification. good to open our eyes behind the typical versions of em all

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

@bloodstreamrunz if not the most prevalent eating disorder classification. Its important to recognize the prevalence of eating disorders that are not given individual diagnostic categories because they are incredibly common and can still be life ruining/threatening

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

been on a crazy binge streak but I did fast for a day in between and I've been exercising so I've been maintaining I think (measurements) but I don't have a scale anymore so I'm scared. that said I have a meal plan set for the next week so we will all be good :)

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

@bloodstreamrunz wanting those things doesn't disqualify you from having an eating disorder

[flesh connoisseur ⚧️ @pvncture_ritual]

Black onyx "third eye" dermal

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

i hav probely gaied so much weight
i think im gonna liquid fast foday plase ja

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

i am trying so hard on my other accunt ito not come ffo as drunk but not here lol cause it takes too much effortducdnsaio i a uch better at this irl than online. idk. something about the screen makes my brain blank out in a way it does not when tlaking

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

got drubk and cut myself a prety little stae we will see tomorrow if it actuallly looks god at tall lol

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

@prettyshse honey mustard is 380 so sub that from the honey mustard chicken crunch and it gets down to 600. annoying they do not have the cals for the chiptole ranch dressing though... 250 for buttermilk probably similar ish

[yūn @unit0214]

scripture by giorgos kazakis

[gracie !! @bakingenjoyer]

Today I made a lemon and raspberry meringue tart !! shortcrust pastry filled with homemade lemon curd, topped with a vanilla bean meringue and fresh raspberries ☀️💗

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

literally only smoke when my mental health is bad because if im in a good spot i view my life in first person and it's like okay. i like the mouth feel but this is kinda loser. but when im doing bad i view my life from the outside and it's romanticised and awesome

[😈 @turtlekiosk]

you know when you do all these things and it's weird and not as fun because you're actually in the first person view not the third person view lol

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

also said my voice wasn't as deep as expected and he thought it would be more macho. like. okay.

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

on my date he pointed out my belly :(

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

because I'm like. literally a current self harm and suicide risk I wanna go home instead of doing what I had planned for the night (so ig I'll do those plans like two weeks from now? idk. we will see. I really want to). but I have to stay out til I stop smelling like tobacco

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

I hate when I'm that middle ground of good enough to know it's bad but bad enough to not be willing to stop it on my own.... like I know what I should do but I can't do it lol. wanna feel like this forever. It hurts more when I reach out idk.

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

talking to friends makes me feel crazy bout being crazy. I just did cigarette surgery on two different cigarettes messaged the group chat about it. smoked em. burned myself with them in public. messaged the group chat that I was regressing and worried about my health and safety

[rotting fruit @slowcoagulation]

that my mama starts noticing and forcing things. and everyone thinks therapy is helping and my friends think I've never had a problem before. when I was in php everyone was like oh but you were fine though? like was I lol.