One of the things poppin into my neurodivergent eye is the fact that, very atypically, Shane seeks closeness to Ilya, when he is freaking out. It means that Shane has reached the level of trust and intimacy with Ilya, where withdrawing and isolating during emotional dysregulation, which would be more typical reaction, is no longer the way he comforts himself. At this point it becomes clear that they are together, partners, the-two-of-them, a unit, something real.
shane is the most repressed person alive ilya really saved his life. he’s lucky he met ilya so young bc who knows what would have happened. parts of himself would keep dying everyday
hudson's acting is actually so insane, the way he physically pulls back, the micro-expressions as he composes himself going from sadness to shock to disappointment? then relief, he gave us an entire potential character backstory in a split second
This scene says so much about how he grew up, even his breakdown is timed, and then it’s straight into problem solving mode. It makes perfect sense that he always needs to be so in control, and that Ilya is the only one he can truly let go with
virgin ilya who is (not so) secretly so obsessed with his roommate shane and he gets jealous so so easily when shane goes on dates and one time shane comes home from a shitty date and ilya is like please please please I could do better just teach me I'll be good
just noticed: at the draft, Shane is encouraged by his parents to speak up, while Ilya is told to shut up
but also, the intentional emptiness to Ilya's right, where Irina should have been, emphasizing her absence and Ilya's loss of parental support?? 😭😭
this moment always gets me… ilya is trying so hard the whole scene to resist grabbing shane right there and kissing him but he fails when shane makes direct eye contact
not many people know how much this scene means to me actually. the flashbacks are enough to make me cry every single time…… like ilya has literally always been shane’s baby for real
imagine this is the kind of kiss h*yden leaked with his cameos, like imagine the two goats of hockey going at it and seeing it on video all because montreal’s worst player is an idiot
the thought of shane telling everyone he has a boyfriend and they all expect the guy to be a twink because shane himself is soooo big that when he introduces them to ilya- a guy even bigger than shane- theyre all like o_o is very pleasing to me