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18 year old vegetarian fucked up waste of space

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I need to stop getting my hopes up and getting so upset with the outcome, oh I miss the days when I was a cold hearted bitch

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This has been the most downhill week ever in terms of eating and it's only Wednesday...

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Oops

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I hate myself

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@small_dainty admittedly I'm still not comfortable with my body and I do still see myself in a negative way but not to that extent

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I was cleaning my room and found my 2013 diary and wow seeing how negatively I saw myself was crazy

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@small_dainty but I still feel the need to know my weight to be in control of my body

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@small_dainty I'm definitely ordering scales tonight I need to save the money but I'm not ready to stop weighing myself, my eating is better

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@small_dainty freaking the fuck out because I don't know what I weigh in don't know if I'm in my kinda okish weight zone or way above

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Just weighed myself and I got two different weights, I didn't believe the first one so I stepped on again and got 5lbs lower and now I'm

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I need to stop reading the packaging of the food I've just eaten because nothing good ever comes from it

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Today reminded me why I never wear this top...most self-conscious day of my life

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Ughhhh this over thinking just needs to stop

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I don't know what's more terrifying, that I might see my body the way it actually is or that I don't see it the way everyone else does.

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Body image has gone to shit and my weight is skyrocketing 👍

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I've gotten so bad lately eating wise, way worse than I used to be with binging and I have no idea why idk how to cope

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I've been so indulgent and careless with my eating lately I've just been shoveling shit into my body and now I look fucking huge

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I've been feeling so ill and shit lately

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I'm just exhausted. In every possible way. Self hatred is exhausting. Having internal mental warfares are exhausting.