being suicidal doesnβt mean that Iβm going to kill myself. being suicidal is having this inexplainable ache while youβre living. Itβs waiting for your life to end, and wishing that you didnβt have to carry on. Having this ache, and incapability to feel happy living, doesnβt mean that I am going to kill myself; it just means that I wouldnβt mind dying